Talked to the boy last night and I don’t think anything is going to change any time soon. So that leaves me with a decision to make. Stay with him, never talk to him, try to move on while I’m still “with” him or break up with him, never talk to him, possibly regret it and feel even more lonely knowing he didn’t fight for me, think about him hooking up with other girls.
I know what I should do. but I don’t want to be alone. I don’t know. I would rather fool myself into thinking that he still likes me and cares for me and misses me instead of giving him up. This sucks.
I have very few friends at school. My own fault. But I don’t know how to change that. D and I could be friends, but he has a girlfriend and I would feel very weird about hanging out with him. Maybe he’ll just be my gym buddy…
Today is Friday and my day involves possibly studying, babysitting and then… probably nothing. I really need a social life. Like now. Or at least start to be productive at home.
